29th April 2014

29th April 2014

What a day!

Went for semi-final round for debate competition. Well prepared for government's side and prepared a little bit for opposition's side just in case ( cox other friends prepared for opposition's). Somehow, I was already prepared for the worst that we will be on the opposition side and dang! we were. And somehow, teacher asked me to go on stage although we got the opposition's because if it's government's, then I go, if it's opposition's, then my other friend will go. Okay, so I went, and was prepared for the worst, again. Not really confident about it, but I know that I must try my best and believe that I can do it. So things were like what i expected. It's like a disaster. I was quite panicked but I told myself to be calm. And the debate goes on blablabla~~ And so the result was like what I expected, we lost. Actually, there is, there is a little, little hope which I hold on to, hoping that we'll win. But nope. I was thinking, nevermind, it's okay, it's okay. And after that, the judges came and told us that we might have chances of winning if we didn't make those technical errors. Technical errors. To be frank, I can't really accept it in the first place. And the mistake that we made is not a minor thing. To me it's actually a huge thing. It's like, the main reason for us to lose is because of technical errors. damn it. But I can't blame no one for that eh. I was really really down and frustrated at that moment. I really wanna let my tears just flow through my cheeks but I can't. 眼泪好浅. Smiling covers up everything. Wrote this down after we lost lol. Just thought that by 'scribbling' down my thoughts and feelings can make me feel better. Turn sadness into words!! [laughs]

And I'm quite happy that I joined debate this year, in my final year of high school. It was a really good experience. I really enjoyed it although the outcome was... not so good. This whole thing was good. This whole preparation, from the district level's to the state level's last round was good. Did it in only 1 week's time. Yeah. It colours up my high school life. :)



Failures are meant to make you stronger and tougher. :') 

just feel like putting this up :p

Note; I'm alright now. No more feeling sad about it. Just simply feel like writing it down. :)